My Dear Little Stories...

Friday, January 27, 2006

dear dear dear i am so busy nowadays that i dun even had the time to blog.. had been feeling tired this week..real tired.. went hm den after a while "pop" and on the bed i am.. can have a nice gd sleep till the day.. wa.. machiam like advertising for pad advert.. lol..

last sat- pei yong ming to town to get his new year clothes.. actually he wanted to pei wo but i already bought mine le so instead is i pei him.. lol.. ming zhou met us halfway thru cos i saw him at J8 when i was abt to reach bishan station.. so ask whther he wanan join.. b4 gg hm, ah ming ge still wanna go billy bombers to eat some snacks.. dun think i dunno u wan to see ur kristabel rite? lol..

last sun- went to tiong bahru Sarah activity hm to do some volunteer work..u know.. time to do some gd deeds rite.. new year le.. a gd beginning ma..help pple.. =) there were nt a lot of us but ok la, we qiang ma so of course we still can help out a lot.. there were 7 flats to be cleaned and 3 in a group.. mi, jelena and peifen.. so we went to the flat to help an old uncle to clean his house.. the flat does nt look dirty .. still quite alright.. and we start distributing jobs lo.. that jelena and peifen dun wan clean toilet la.. so i cleaned lo..lol..hai hao the toilet nt too dirty..that uncle quite gd la.. he wont insist us to clean till veri clean den can.. and he gt lotsa food! lol.. we were like "uncle, u gt so much food lei.."

new year is cuming .. but i dun feel at least a bit of happiness and joy.. really veri sad.. my family is getting further and further apart..everyone is busy abt our own things.. morning early went out, at nite cum back.. without much communication den go to sleep le.. whats this? sometimes its better keeping quiet than opening ur mouth and quarrel begins.. i wan to go back to childhood.. i really miss my childhood days.. i miss ah gong.. i miss that better time..

i hate u! seriously.. at least for these few days.. i veri bu fu qi! how could u scold mi all those bad and hurtful words.. even wan to kill mi.. i was really hurt and cried for the whole nite till i m too tired and fell asleep..u were in the wrong! nt mi! is tv shows more impt than I! so wat if u shout shout! everyone mus give in to u la! i am bad tempered too! i cant tolerate all thse shit! i hate pple whom yuan wang wo! sorry pple, i really have to fa xie or i'll go crazy..

sometimes i really hate myself so much! i dunno y i am born xia.. born to irritate pple and give pple troubles onli.. i am sorry to those whom i always irritate and disturb..give mi time..really.. as u all know.. i am talkertive one.. i will be better.. sometimes i get out of control.. i jus wan to be crazy to forget abt all the unhappiness and stuffs.. sorry for all these nonsense from mi..

from now onwards i wan to live a happier life ..=) i can do it! believe in myself..

i wanna see you, you and onli you..its been more than a week since we last met..

here to gan xie you whom been showing mi care and concern.. sometimes a msg really helps..

i jus feels so sucky after sch.. dunno la.. meet up with ma to go NTUC buy stuffs.. heard wat she say i more gek.. wanna cry out le.. after a while den get better.. bought a lot of things and super heavy lo. onli we 2 carry all the way hm.. omg..ah ma and ah mei zhen liao bu qi..haha..

tmr gt the doc apptment at national skin centre.. so sian.. gg to check abt the warts thing lo.. its pain. u see mi walk so normal is actually ren de lo..sometimes la.. or else if i walkin the way to prevent the pain, veri xin ku de lei.. hope everything will be fine..

ending.. i know.. its a long entry.. thanks for reading!

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dolphlyn out
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