about me
# PeIxi aka ShERlYn.
# 19 years old.
# 04/06/1987.
Saturday, November 26, 2005
y am i so stupid to go out with u all when i know i will be an extra.. i gave it a try.. i tot things will be different.. but i was wrong.. i regret it totally..i am tagging behind u all for the whole journey.. wats the purpose of gg out? am i invisible? i know la.. u all will also think i veri fan, keep tagging behind and keep asking "huh. wats that u r saying?" i am so sorry abt that..
i felt HORRIBLE! i wanted so much to leave but didn't so as nt to make things worse.. tolerate is wat i did.. so? wat did i get in the end?
yeah.. u all have tons and tons of secrets with each other.. true.. i was like an idiot who knows nth! nth at all! its ok.. i already get over it.. knowing too many things isn't good.. but the way u all r showing is that i am like an obstacle.. blocking u all from toking freely and easily..that u all need to whisper or watsoever..
laugh laugh laugh.. i dunno wat u all r laughing abt ! i dont think it's funny at all lo! u all r building ur own happiness at my expense..watever la.. no nid hide de... i know u all r laughing even when u all r looking away.. wats this? u all know how it hurts? i know..jus as they say.. i am already a joke myself rite?.. fine lo!
i wanted so much to scream out loud! as loud as i could to vent away those anger and sadness i have in mi! but i cant! once again.. tolerate... i am gg mad! tears rolled.. none of u will understand this feeling.. cos u all r jus too lucky to be always in the limelight.. sumtimes i really think" am i really so irritating?" i am such a failure..
where r my true frens?
i bought a lot of things today.. buying things to pamper yourself when u r in a bad mood makes u feel better.. a bit.. yes.. a bit..
pple says chocolates will liven up the mood of one.. is it true? cuz i already had a lot of it.. but it doesn't seems to work..
truthfully.. i think u r a veri lucky person but u doesn't seem to realise.. there will always be someone besides u and care for u when u r in a bad mood..but i don't alright? i am always the one to be ur " fa xie tong".. everyone likes to hang ard with u.. u have lotsa frens.. u r popular.. maybe thats the reason u dun treasure mi.. i always give in when i am nt in the wrong.. mayb i am too soft-hearted?u dun seem to realise it.. u take mi for granted..
i am tired.. tired of all these... watever le la..
dolphlyn out
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